Weirdest "last day of school" ever

If the school year had continued the way it was supposed to, today would have been the last day of school. Tomorrow the staff would've gone to school and finished the stuff we needed to do to shut our rooms down for the summer and we would've kicked off the summer break by about noon. But since this year very quickly became anything but typical, the last day of school, for some of the kids anyway, was March 12. It's so crazy to think about just how long we've been at home.

The second half of the year is basically just one of upheaval and it's left me super uneasy and just unfinished. Without being able to put eyes on my kids I don't really know how they are. There is a huge difference between saying everything is fine or good and actually meaning it/being fine or good. There's a lot of gray area with a lot of my kids right now and it stresses me out.

Speaking of kids, though, I had a great chat with my firstborn today. He opted to jump from high school to college and today was virtual graduation for his high school class. That also brings some sadness to my life because we missed out on that opportunity to celebrate his achievement and a milestone but I also respect him for making a choice and sticking with it. He said some of his friends said he was still in the digital graduation ceremony so that's interesting to me and it makes me sad that I missed it! Later this weekend all of his peers will get their diploma covers on home plate at the new Globe Life Park and that would've been a really awesome experience, too.

Since it already feels like we've been on break for a while, even with working and prepping kids for an AP exam, next week my APUSH/WHAP partner and I are going to start planning and figure out a schedule for next year. Since we don't know what next year will look like, when it will start, if it will be in person/digital, or when it will "switch," I think we both want to be sure we have all the various contingencies covered.

It's just all really weird. I don't even know how to describe it but I just feel a weird pit in my stomach and I don't have any clue why.

It's not my favorite.

Aubs