Oops

I just realized that I never actually said what the "big sad" part of my evening. I was sitting on my couch when I got a text, phone call, voicemail, and email simultaneously. That is never a good sign. So I put the student on hold and read. They can clearly tell by my facial expression that it isn't good.

Well, initially they think it's great because I'm saying "Ohmygod" over and over...and then I read it aloud "The district has decided, for the safety of its students and staff to continue with distance learning through April 17." That's two weeks later than originally planned.

Like, I knew it was probably coming but it was still so heartbreaking to read it. And the looks on the face of others as I read it truly broke my heart. As much as they complain about going to school they actually look forward to it more than they thought. It goes back to my thoughts about how kids crave routine even though they consistently buck against it. I thought it was just my nerd status wanting to be back at school but it's all of us.

We want our normal back.

I do like the super-casual work attire and the fact that I can pee whenever I want but I would gladly trade it all in a heartbeat to go back to school.

Today was SAT scores release day so I had a lot of kids who were disappointed in themselves even though they had no reason to be. They made forward progress. Some improved by a handful of points and others improved by close to a hundred but they all mostly moved forward. I kept reminding them that they still have time to improve and can take it again before it "counts," but to give themselves a little grace.

I think we all need to do that right now.

I know I do.

And one of the ways I'm going to do that is by giving myself the "go ahead" to go to bed.

I don't know why this day has just been a super suckfest. It really wasn't even bad...it's just...

Blah.

Aubs